Friday, December 14, 2007

Paths of Life

Either I have less readers than I think or the readers are as befuddled as I am in dealing with vicious cycles. I cried "Help" in my last blog and heard not a word. :)

That's OK! I figured out how to deal with the vicious cycle, I stopped walking for 3 days. Got up very early and went straight to work, getting there by 6:30 each day & by 5:30 today. I have been putting in some long days trying to get an accounting project done and my co-worker and I have failed. Today, we got an email from the accountant that started with, "You're making this so very complicated." Umm! The funny thing about this whole situation is that I guess I have always been under the misconception that accountants require details and accuracy. So my co-worker and I have been trying to provide accurate details to them without really knowing if we were on the right track. They (the accountants) don't want to share with us what reports they are using to come up with "numbers," so it's hard to know if my department numbers reconcile with theirs or not. Perhaps, they don't know how to get the information they want and they have led us down a tedious, unnecessary path.

Anyway, I have to chill-out about it, because it's not a matter of life or death. It's just numbers! Numbers that don't affect our reimbursement or census. I can not deny that the past two weeks of trying to get this information for them has amounted to a lot of stress and about 40 hours overtime (unpaid of course). I have to remember that we were led down a "tedious path" and if I take my own advise, there is something to be learned by these past weeks journey.

There is a need for explanations, give us the whole picture. What is it we're trying to accomplish and why? Show us the "whole picture." Where are we right now? Where do we want to go? Information is so important, whether you're working on a project for work, helping your child understand something, or working on a project for your own peace.

Yes, what is it I'm trying to accomplish? I want to be filled with peace and I do not want to fill myself with food. Why? Because I've done it (filled myself with food) long enough! I want more satisfaction in my life than food brings to me. Where am I right now? About 40% of my weight loss goal. Still aiming for spiritual fulfillment. Glad for some emotional fulfillment... so glad that I could take the accountant's statement about "making this very complicated" and find some truth to her statement without going totally defensive and ballistic!

Yes, sometimes we have to go down tedious paths in our lives, that we may view as unnecessary. Hopefully, we can accept the "unnecessary" part of the journey and turn it into a necessary requirement for learning and growing. It isn't always easy, but it sure is interesting what a person can learn about themselves if they are open to the possibilities.

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