Blessings

"Write your sorrows in the sand, Carve your blessings in stone."

That is a saying on a plaque that my sister gave me last year. I have mentally been repeating it to myself lately so that I can find some semblance of order in my chaotic life.

"Chaotic," in the fact that I feel out-of-control with my self. I'm eating too much, drinking too much alcohol, not drinking water, not walking, working too many long hours and not writing. I know that if this keeps on, I am going to find myself flat on my face in misery or flat on my back with disease, a bad cold or flu or something that will make me slow down. If that happens, then I may have to take a day off work and the work will pile up more! Which will create more out-of-control feelings.

OK, now I have written my "sorrows" in the sand. Let the waves wash away my writings. Let the waves of love and forgiveness wash away my sorrows, my fears and my anxiety. Let me start to concentrate on carving my blessings on the stone.

I have a lot of blessings in which to be thankful.

• I am healthy (regardless of my recent eating and drinking habits)
• I have a good relationship with my hubby
• I have a job that challenges and rewards me
• I have parents that are still alive and visiting me
• I have a nice, big place to live (and it's warm & sunny)
• I have dependable vehicles to allow me to travel around
• I have friends that care

Yes, I have alot of blessings to "carve into stone." Blessings that can sustain me and get me going in a straight path rather than the circles of chaos, which leads to spinning out of control. I think that I need to take one of those "circles of chaos" and commit to work on it each day. If I try to stop everything at once, it will seem to be an impossible and daunting task. However, I can work on one thing a day. One day at a time. I can do one thing, one day, while I keep repeating my blessings until the feeling of thankfulness is engrained in my heart and soul.